Scream!!

Do you ever just wanna scream?? Like proper from the bottom of your Lungs and just let it all out!

None of this silent screaming, None of this Screaming into your pillow! Not even screaming in your head… I mean

The middle of Nowhere, down on our knees , Thumping the ground Loud ass full blown scream !!!

And just asking the question Why?

Why is this happening to me?

Why am I always unlucky?

Why do I have to fight so hard every day?

Why is day to day life a struggle?

Why is it so much pressure?

Why?????

In bed 1.08am wide awake Emotional feel like the world on my shoulders feel like everyone is going places in every aspect of their life, feel like I’m drowning and I just wanna scream!! I just wanna let it all out! I just want to release the pressure and let the world know I’m angry, I’m Fraustrated, I’m annoyed and you know what …..

That’s ok!! Its ok to feel this way! It’s ok to have these days! it’s ok to feel every emotion go through you! Its OKAY!!!

FRIDAY 16TH JULY 12pm…

This apparatus looks scary but it’s not!!!

I really need you to read this blog!!

The reason for the Capitals isnt because I’m shouting it’s because it’s such an important date and I want to highlight it and get your attention!!

The date- I had my SMEAR TEST! 

Let’s talk about that shall we, I was nervous, embarrassed & Uncomfortable  but you know what I am so glad I got my act together made that appointment for 12pm ,  i went to my appointment, lay on that bed and got the 2 minute procedure done! The nurse was amazing she was as gental as she could be while she was being as thorough as possible!

Smear Test Procedure!!

I get it ladies, I get all the feelings and all the paranoia that goes through your head leading up to that moment of getting your smear test done or The paranoia of how bad the procedure is gonna be that you just can’t book it!!

I promise you I have had those exact same thoughts and feelings, I make it bigger in my head than what it actually is! I promise you the nurse has seen thousands of Vagina’s she doesnt care if your waxed, if your hairy , your bare, clean shaven or have an afro down there she cares that you have plucked up the courage to go and get the 2 minute test done! I test that could potentially save your life!

I would rather be uncomfortable, nervous and Anxious for 10 Minutes (the Smear itself is 2 minutes if not less/the appointment as a whole was 10 minutes) than finding out I had Cervical Cancer!

Please!! Please Ladies find that strength in you, be brave and book that appointment when your letter comes through the post, Please Go to that appointment! Put your big girl pants on chin up push your fears aside March in that room and have that test done!! I know you can do it!! You got this!!

Not to sound brutal but if you get Cervical Cancer the last thing you will be worrying about is how clean or shaved your Vagina area is!! Dont let your head scare you! YOU CAN DO IT!!